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Time heals all wounds they say… yes, it is very old and clichéd but… how true is it?

I was going through a forward e-mail a while back and it was about how no matter what happens, how everything leads to that ‘special someone’. Hmmm… is it true? Here I was thinking that I was totally over that ‘special someone’ but then I realized that I constantly talk about him. I realized that in most instances, he is always on my mind.

Every time we meet I feel that there is just something special between us. I am so happy to see him and I know that deep down, he too is happy that we met. Even if we have not talked in ages, I know that when we do talk it will be like yesterday when we spoke last.

They say that first loves will always have a special place in your heart, but for how long? Do you end up mixing up feelings of love and friendship? Or are you just not over that person, in spite of everything you tell yourself and your friends?

So really, how do you know if you have healed or not? How do you know if you have actually come out of that hole you were in? Will you ever really know, you are not in love with that special someone?

Why is it that the people we are closest to, see our best and at the same time see the worst of us? Why is it that we always seem to have the biggest issues with the people we are the closest to? Is it normal?

Is it really the fault of one person or both parties that things did not work out?

I always think back and wonder if I will end up going through life regretting not doing ‘this’ or saying ‘that’? How will I really know, if the choices I made with regard to him were right? How will I ever know?

So, in the end, does time really heal all wounds?

Or is it that in the end, we just tend to put that part of our life aside, and move on to the next chapter?

The last few weeks have got me to thinking about a number of things. Among them, one interesting topic, which came about is about day and night.

Yes, we all know that ‘day’ and ‘night’ are very different. But have you ever noticed that moods, actions etc and even feelings can all change as well?

It is as though in the day you have to be one person but come night time, everything seems so different. The darkness, in a sense is a shield, a shadow, it can even cause the feeling of fear. At the same time you feel you are able to get away with anything.

Take a simple thing like driving, for example. In the day, my parents do not hesitate for an instance, to let me take the car and go on a rendezvous but in the night, there are so many rules and regulations. Like you have to ask so and so to follow you home or ask so and so to come with you in the car etc etc etc. Or better yet, “DON’T GO!!!” would be their suggestion!!!

In the same way there are certain things you would do in the night that you would not dare do in the day. You would not dress in a certain way, or you won’t consume alcohol in the middle of the day… well, at least usually you would not

Is it that humans have double standards or is it instinct to have a change of mood when day turns to nigh and night turns to day?

Do we have multiple personalities in built in us? Hmmm… I wonder?